Pain in Paradise Lost

I like my job. It is the perfect job for me right now with my broken paw. Today my mouse wouldn't work. I told my supervisor Waldo, twice. Nothing was done. My wrist got a bump. I had to ice it. I told the wonderful Alice supervisor and she had me move my desk. Then someone I don't know the name came on night shift and sat in my place with the errant mouse. I hope unknown got it working.

Adam was off today, resting up from his weekend in wiring. He deserves a day off. He did vac for me the big sweetie.

I dreamt of my dead finace last night. He had long hair and was dressed in black on a black motorcycle and he took me with him after I pleaded with him. He told me to hold on to his black leather wide belt instead of clasping my hands tightly around his waist. I can still feel the leather underneath my hands. it was soft and warm.

I like motocycles, haven't been on many, well twice. I get really nervous. I really don't like riding on them but wish I did.

Today I purchase a pack of Marlboro's just cause I could, smoke two puffs from a fag, put it out and gave the pack away. At $4.07 a pack she was glad to get it. Those two puffs reminded me why I don't smoke cigarettes. I never got pleasure out of it. They taste terrible and make me cough.

Adam smoke like a chimmey for 30 maybe 40 years. He has been smoke free for the past three years and would kill me if I started smoking. He said he would toss me out of Paradise. Me and my little dog too.

I have such a headache. Had one since I got up. Maybe I should take some Claritin. These red pills they have now, melt in your mouth without water. I don't know if I have allergies but I took advil twice and it didn't work. 800mg both times. I am a big girl.

I hate chronic pain. Larry who has CA of the brain and is looking very orange today and I were talking at lunch. He showed me his wrist and told me he tried to cut himself this weekend. He's dying and is poor and divorce and crazy and knows it. He said he was just tired and ready to die. I had asked him how his liver was because he looks so orange. He said his urine is very dark and his stool is black. Too much information but I am a nurse. Still. It was in the lunch room.

Orion running around, needs to be groomed. Cat needs treats. I told her this morning that Cats might have been Gods in Egypt but they weren't in this house. She wasn't listening.