Went to New Hope yesterday. Walked around for an hour. Up hills. Down hills. Up stairs. Down stairs. Is there any surface level in New Hope? I am suffering today. S U F F E R I N G. I am miserable. And I have so much to do. Paradise is messy.
Adam & I and stars went to Home Depot and purchase shelves for the spare room which Adam quickly filled with stuff from the spare room. It looks neater. It really does.
He is out planting Hosta's now.
Why do I buy bare roots? I spend so much money and they never grow on me. I hope these do.
I did laundry, dishes, paperwork, water indoor jungle. Slept. Ate way too much. Talked to Michele Angelo. We were speaking about ghosts and such.
Michele Angelo believes that Spirits can touch you and speak in your ear and basically can annoy you. There are evil spirits.
I believe that if you protect yourself no one can hurt you. You have to let them in. You have to be on their level.
Being reborn again Christ is with me. I never worry about anything. I am afraid sometimes. And I do fear death. I have no idea what is going to happen to me after death. I am afraid of punishment. Those are my own fears and it doesn't make them true.
It is hard to work The Secret when you feel like I do because most of the time I feel miserable. I put on a good front, happy, helpful. I hide from Adam. But I feel rotten. Not emontionally. I am happy. But physically I hurt. Suffering for beauty I guess. HE HE.
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