First Day in Garden

Today while the Garden was without power except the circle of lamp light Adam arranged for me to read by, I read Blogging for Dummies. This book made me think about blogging and also the dangers of blogging. I do not want everyone to read about my life. I know Adam doesn't. So hand in hand with the snake of the public eye, I begin this blog.

The reason the Garden was without power is because Adam is rewiring the electric in the house. The Garden is a small, strange house which we purchased "As Is" 4 years ago. Adam has been working on it ever since.

And He is exhausted. He said his fingers hurt and are swollen. My poor first man.

Adam and I have been married 4 years this July. The first time I was married was also in July. Both of my marriages have been Leo blessed. First to a water bearer and now to a bull. I have been blessed.

My first marriage was a rebound marriage. I had been engaged from 18 to 21. Two months before my college graduated and Atlas and mine wedding, the world became too heavy for him and he drowned. It wasn't suicide. I am just trying to maintained my metaphors. Of course I fell immediately in love with a tan set of teeth which didn't work out, then I met my water bearer and married him. WB is not a bad guy. I just didn't love him as he deserved to be loved. I would pray every night to fall in love with him. I being raised a good Catholic good and having more fear of my Mother then God, did not divorce WB until she died. Leaving him was the bravest thing I ever did.

I do want to defend myself for no reason except I can and say I didn't want to fall in love with Adam. I left WB the day I woke up and realized I could no longer sleep in the same bed with WB morally. Adultery and Morality don't seem to be compatible. I make my own logical to justified my actions, just because I can.

Adam and I "lived in sin" for 4 years. I really was unhappy not being married. Which I found really perplexing because I believe in sex outside marriage and sleeping with your partner before marriage, and etc. The only reason I can think of my unhappiness is because I was born in the '50's.

So here I am, in Paradise with the love of my life. Because even though Atlas was a romantic hero; If I was Juliet he was Romeo. Only I was still alive. I realized that I loved Atlas, loved him with all my heart, but the heart was of a child, a young women. I loved Adam as a women. A women who had lived though death and betrayal. Births and wonderment. It was a different love and I am blessed to have the experience of both.

So that is basically my story and how Adam & I created our Paradise, The Garden.

With us in Paradise are two fellow travelers, stars fallen from Heaven, Sirius and Orion. They are Adam's & My babies. Along with a feline who was dain to join us we exist. Proving once more that Stupidity may prevail.

Actually, neither Adam nor I are stupid. Adam is a warrior taking this life off. "And well he knows a women's tears". That is what a Magi said to us once. I had paid for the reading and Adam seem to dominate it. I found it fascinating listening to her talk about him. I kind of like that Adam. Talking about him is one of my favorite things to do.

I am a Leo. My lesson in this life seems to be illness. I am frail. I actually have to go now because I feel like I am going to be sick.