I'm a simple person. I have no agenda. I rarely think bad of anyone. I do have thoughts of people who were mean to me for no reason I can think of. There is this guy at work Pead who is in charge of the computers. He never talks to me. It could be racist. He cheerfully greets others of his own race. Me, he just nods to. One of my buddies who works for him said he has no people skills. I know computers is a young man's game and he could be afraid. I am sure the 20 year olds at work know more about computers than he does. Senority counts. Mostly years.
I worked at another job where one man influenced a woman to dislike me. I thought I got along well with both of them. Now this is what I really don't like. Phoniness. Don't smile to my face then stab me in the back. I rather the guy at my current work who just nods to me than this man and woman.
I believe God puts me where he wants me to be. I believe there are stepping stones. My job is to be happy where I am. When I pray I feel better. When I don't, I don't feel good. I have to remember to pray not fret.
Loving one's neighbor as thyself is hard because I don't know myself. That is my biggest challenge.
My therapist said it is because of what happened to me in childhood. I got little at work the other day feeling ill. This back injury is both a blessing and a curse. If I remember to listen to it and not fret, I am ok.
I love my life, but it is hard. I am blessed but it is hard. Living is hard.
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